A Canvas of the Minds has helped raise awareness about mental health and all of its colors. I feel strongly about this, as I suffer from depression and anxiety and also come from a family with a long line of mental illnesses that I struggle to understand daily.
Please join me and 100+ bloggers in this continued plight.
Today, and always:
“I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.”
My mental health history started when I was 8-years-old. Genetics, life events and transitions shaped the progression of my chronic depression, anxiety, and eating disorders.
I have been in and out of counseling most of my life, with little effect. Only last year did I become aware that I could not bear life’s pains any longer, and could not continue to distract myself away from them. I took leave from my job and spent 3 months in intensive outpatient therapy to treat Binge Eating Disorder. Of course, this disorder is born of anxiety and I have been working for the past year on being aware of what my triggers are and healing my broken heart.
It’s interesting, because I really do have a heart condition (mitral valve regurgitation), and I have other physical ailments as a result of the pain I have never fully faced.
This blog is my attempt to face it, own it, and heal, with the ultimate goal of harming myself no further. I have a long way to go on that point, but each journey starts with a step, and continues by pressing on, even if the feet feel like anchors sometimes.
Thank you for reading, and thank you for any efforts you make on this behalf. We all have stories and can offer support and validation – something so many of us need so badly.
Art by Pip Macenzie