Relapse

In relapse for the past three weeks

Things always seem to work in threes

No stake in numbers but it’s uncanny 

How consistent my failure seems

Been stuffing, purging, stuff again 

These full-blown behaviors deny

Any trace of recovery like natural sin

My mind does not comply 

Two weeks until some relief comes

Ingestible fate will change my brain 

And if it doesn’t, I’ll do what’s next

Under the knife or drastic refrain 

I have no choice anymore 

“They’ve all been made for you!” he screams

A tiny knick to my bleeding soul

The fire within, distant glimmering 

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  1. hbhatnagar says:

    I’m sorry to hear you’re relapsing. Meds seem so useless sometimes. I don’t have hope to give you, but an attentive ear is available. Hope this relapse doesn’t work in threes.

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    1. woundstofeel says:

      Thank you. I appreciate the support. I really feel like all I can do is death grip my way through the next two weeks, and attempt to not give into behaviors.

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      1. hbhatnagar says:

        Keep venting here, it helps a little.

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  2. tiffnvb says:

    Hi I am a new follower of urs & I just wanna say I can relate to u a lot! I know what Ur going thro is hard but Ur not alone & writing I agree helps so much. Try to keep Urself busy as much as possible & I know I don’t know u but I’m here if u ever wanna chat!!! *Hugs* “This too shall pass.” 😋

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    1. woundstofeel says:

      Thank you so much! It’s the support of this community that helps me a great deal. Hugs back!

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  3. You hang in there, Mama Bear ❤
    Keep that chin up and trudge through, HUGS.

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    1. woundstofeel says:

      Thank you AJ! That means a lot.

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      1. Don’t be too hard on yourself, Kiddo

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      2. woundstofeel says:

        ❤️

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