I Am

Numb to myself
the decision is made
all cards in the deck
have already been played
nothing more to do,
everything has been said
the knots in the rope
have finally lost their thread

I’ve put in the work,
sufficient agony
time tested
pushing and pulling of my sanity
now I’m trying to get back my humanity
to what was me before “he and she”

Before I was “us”, before I lost trust
in the very foundations of who I was
built upon dogma, lies, and sand
so now I have to build who the fuck I am.

Emily ©

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