Lost in the moment
heart beating rapidly
air failing to reach
constricted lungs

I feel each breath,
the sounds of struggling
unsure of what I’m suffering from

I drive intensely-
need my home
to hide away
from bright sunlight

home is where I know the rules
and break them when and how I like

I trust myself
to betray
the goals I have
can’t be attained

my skin and mind
feel fireblown
can’t walk the paths
I do not know

and if I do,
it will surprise
an insult to my
wounded pride

too used to pain
its dark embrace
my only known
my only faith.

Emily C. Poésie © 2019