Mosaic

I’m not broken, just like shattered pieces miraculously come back together improved upon by time and the wisdom of age. I’m not broken because my love was taken for granted, unaccepted, rejected, betrayed. I’m not broken because I took him back as I hoped for change, and it’s not my fault I was his prey,…

Wake Up

Wake up little girl, you’re too far gone, plant your feet on the ground and start walking life has changed so quickly, time is a blur, things may never go back to the way they were take heed to the lessons this crisis is teaching, decide to take action, stop side-stepping be urgent, stop thinking,…

Casualty

I felt pretty when you spoke to me, like the mirror became kinder, I painted my nails, wore red lipstick, even gave myself a wink. I strutted with a more confident step, felt my eyes meet others instead of the ground, tried to keep a smile instead of a grimace, all because I felt seen…

Seascape

I am diving too much into news, buzzes and feeds, brutally aware of their intended distraction. I feel I am walking through mud as I attempt to make tiny steps toward productivity. When I do take a pause, without this device that threatens to bend my thumbs into a permanent texting state, I feel the…

Tedium

My heartbeat quickens, my head feels light as I attempt to take the steps I’ve been taught are right Get up in the morning, move the body and soul don’t stay in bed  to hear the call of a soft pillow Get my sneakers on head straight to the gym work my body so my…

Questions

I have an abundance to be grateful for while also having to face my demons no matter my progress I still feel the emptiness the nagging anger the venom I speak all in an effort to cloak my vulnerability. I am not always a snake yet I look in the mirror wonder why I say…

Pang

My psychiatrist tells me I am progressing, taking the necessary steps toward healing but I can’t find a therapist who will listen to all the unpacking I need to purge the system is flooded and all I can hope for is an outsourced counseling student who is earning her hours when what I really need…

Flee

It is the easiest thing to feel the slightest discomfort and want to sabotage, flee all because we are scared to death of true connection, unmuddied by the nuisance of unwarranted conflict we seem to crave the chase, crave those who treat us like shit all for some validation that we can make them love…

Old Songs

I walked into nature alone today and immediately felt the breeze envelop me the sound of the brook babbling trees whistling and whispering to me my phone still had a signal a song came on one I have sung a thousand times before but this time it created a swell of memories I had pushed…

The lies I tell myself

I’m a damaged broken husk of myself robotic in my movements most unremembered except the ones that torture an intrusive stain that grows ever larger as I test my fate I can’t get out of bed I’m a fatal disaster if I move it will prove I can make my life better instead I’ll pull…