Burst

Upped my dose now when I feel it’s like an avalanche building slowly with time precipitation, density one fated sound or movement the unwelcome trigger revealing what’s buried underneath my belly aches eyes burn with the manifestations of all past regrets losses, tragedies mingled with remembrance of when I was strong enough to be consistent…

Known

Lost in the moment heart beating rapidly air failing to reach constricted lungs I feel each breath, the sounds of struggling unsure of what I’m suffering from I drive intensely- need my home to hide away from bright sunlight home is where I know the rules and break them when and how I like I…

Mannequin

Faceless stranger, keep your blur don’t reveal your name don’t let me see your features we’ll be the same Dressed up by others scripted movements made misunderstood by the members of the people’s parade. Emily C. Poésie © 2019

Not likely

For the first time in months,I allow myself to feel the creeping hopelessness of my current state Anger and grief for myself while not being able to fully move Quicksand steps in life and dreams, unable to do what must be done to climb out of the well I’ve put myself in I’ve allowed myself…

Sight

She drives in silence, finally able to think without the noise of persistent voices Listens to the music pouring from loud speakers into her mind, penetrating her heart Aware of the tears building momentum, unable to stop their needed release Feeling the melodic lull of loneliness no ending within her sight. Emily C. Poésie ©…

War

When will I believe he loves me? After each test is passed and new ones created to double check? When will I believe I love me? After doubt is a distant memory and the urge to self-harm is repressed? My war displayed in two living beings. Mirrored, dueling flames. Emily C. Poésie © 2019 Image:…

Journey

I opened them again the wounds of my past hovering in the present dictating the future as much as I wish I didn’t paint the picture of an abandoned lost girl I suppose I did See me clearly feel my warmth hope for new love that won’t stray at the sign of a scary thought…

Soul Sounds

been coloring the creations of others distracted from creating my own stuck in my mind afraid of the pen my greatest ally dearest friend feel the waves of breath give life to words unformed inside my mind free write free flow let it all go structure unneeded rules broken this is my soul it has…

Lives

Raindrops on my window pane overcome with gray, the outside world doesn’t invite me, my bed the only comfort feeling the bitter pain of leaving after a sweet respite of unconditional love in close proximity. As I pull the covers closer, waves of guilt and regret consume me, I haven’t been who I wish to…

Let Down

I let you down despite my best attempts said words I can’t unsay phrases I can’t take back confused by life as it seemed haunted by past regrets petrified by my fears I couldn’t be what you needed you told me time and again I was enough, but felt torn down the middle heart stolen…