Mindful

Coasting isn’t the way, I know its path too well, when feeling overwhelmed by grief, whatever kind I choose, whatever kind bestowed on me, with blinders on and those I see, I can’t control the things I can’t, only the girl I choose to see in the mirror staring back at me. It is a…

Freeflow

I have strength inside me yet – walls were climbed, placed in front of me repeatedly, some handled less than gracefully, unwilling to decide it was my time to give up, even when I felt others give up on me, their rejection and abandonment I needed to see, not always about me, complex matters causing…

Secrets

10/7/17 I want to give reasons why something is wrong send them into the air even with no response I could write full chapters on family histories to validate my mind on my thoughts and theories I could add human touch to what I’ve been through paint a picture of why it may mean something…

Not Alone

I’ve taken up yoga, just in my room, helps me manage my thoughts of gloom and doom Signed up to attend community events, but I’m kind of shy, I’ll let you know how it went Walk most days with a band on my wrist, counting my steps toward goals and fitness Miles and above all…

Revelations

I was calm in the car today. I didn’t cry as I drove home, and as I started to think of why that could be, I felt a sense of empowerment and relief. I know I’m not the easiest person to deal with sometimes, and those are the thoughts that sometimes swirl for far too…

The Edge of a Full Recovery

Written 8/9/2014. I suffered with various Eating Disorders since I was 8 years old, received treatment in 2013, and haven’t had any real relapses since 2015. I will always be on my journey toward better health and mindfulness most of all, but I needed to be reminded today of how far I’ve come. I hope for anybody struggling, my words can be of some assistance.