Cloak and Dagger

I. You came back to me, second chances are one thing, but expecting me to bend completely to your expectations was a distorted fantasy. I couldn’t give a pound of flesh for a vulnerability, so you did what you did originally – Left me. II. You didn’t leave with courage, you left a coward, after…

Choice

People choose to see what they wish, until faced with concrete reality that can’t be ignored, not that the past ever should have been, just for a taste of the present; brief moments with him, Liars are good at what they do – they deflect their behavior back onto you, when it’s not in your…

Try Outs

It’s easy to write about pain, though pain often is the result of a beautiful hope, in something unknown, in something new, yet wise enough to see what is you, and not be afraid. Fear can also be pain, innocence lost, stepping without seeing carries too great a cost, yet we still sometimes do, it…

Mindful

Coasting isn’t the way, I know its path too well, when feeling overwhelmed by grief, whatever kind I choose, whatever kind bestowed on me, with blinders on and those I see, I can’t control the things I can’t, only the girl I choose to see in the mirror staring back at me. It is a…

Freeflow

I have strength inside me yet – walls were climbed, placed in front of me repeatedly, some handled less than gracefully, unwilling to decide it was my time to give up, even when I felt others give up on me, their rejection and abandonment I needed to see, not always about me, complex matters causing…

Secrets

10/7/17 I want to give reasons why something is wrong send them into the air even with no response I could write full chapters on family histories to validate my mind on my thoughts and theories I could add human touch to what I’ve been through paint a picture of why it may mean something…

Warmth

Big changes for me, closing chapters Sad day for me, but focusing on others The ones still here; the ones that love me, all sides been through the fires and our hearts are entwined Friendships with lifelong wisdom, offering who I am and not being rejected Not anxious to be in places I’m not meant…

Clarity

I have few words in me it seems since feeling noticeably absent sadness, objective acceptance, excitement with caution, worry with patience, now planning new phases, new ways of embracing ongoing life changes without a partner, or hope for new love. Just me, as lonely as it can be, clarity is all the fulfillment I need….

Revelations

I was calm in the car today. I didn’t cry as I drove home, and as I started to think of why that could be, I felt a sense of empowerment and relief. I know I’m not the easiest person to deal with sometimes, and those are the thoughts that sometimes swirl for far too…

Fragments

When the car door shuts I know I’m free to feel what’s washing over me Take off my masks that serve me well, as honest as they may be; they can’t tell the greater story of what’s behind my eyes, of what I see. I wish I could say it all, like a purge of…